My heart goes out to you and I'm so glad you had the love of your wife and friends to support you. Cancer is so common that it's become a word we often gloss over. Describing your experience indeed puts a very real, very human experience in front of it. Best wishes for a long, happy future.
Powerful article and I cannot imagine how difficult it was to write. Your experience resonates deeply with my own about the trauma of cancer treatment. My husband endured agonizing treatment and surgeries for pancreatic cancer. Whatever the cancer outcome, the treatments and surgeries have profound consequences, physical and emotional. Thank you for talking about this.
One small writing point, you didn’t plot up the stairs to talk to your wife, you plodded.
"There is also a weird part of this experience, where cancer has changed me profoundly in a positive way. Where I used to be bothered by getting caught in the rain or traffic, now I just smile and thank God that I’m alive to be stuck in either. The weight of other things in my life has decreased."
Gratitude really is synonymous with happiness, in many ways. I've never had cancer but I've been in recovery from addiction for years. The shame, the lost nights, the cravings, the sweating, the weight loss, the firings, the arrests, the unwillingness to see people or pick up the phone, the terrible decisions and the regrets are all in my past. You don't bear any culpability for your cancer, like I do for my drug use, but I understand the positive change you speak about. Having those factors removed from my life (by God, I think, although I didn't believe in him and still really don't, intellectually) was like having a weight lifted from me. Now, every day is glorious. There are a few things which could ruin my happiness (and eventually one of them will... things like the death of my brother or my parents) but every day is mostly cake now. It's ALL good, even the bad things. I wish I could bottle this feeling and give it to other people (or maybe sell it) but it doesn't work that way. You have to pass through the fire to appreciate the beauty, it seems.
This piece is simultaneously terrifying, beautiful, depressing, and inspirational. I thank you for writing it and will be sharing it across media.
My heart goes out to you and I'm so glad you had the love of your wife and friends to support you. Cancer is so common that it's become a word we often gloss over. Describing your experience indeed puts a very real, very human experience in front of it. Best wishes for a long, happy future.
Powerful article and I cannot imagine how difficult it was to write. Your experience resonates deeply with my own about the trauma of cancer treatment. My husband endured agonizing treatment and surgeries for pancreatic cancer. Whatever the cancer outcome, the treatments and surgeries have profound consequences, physical and emotional. Thank you for talking about this.
One small writing point, you didn’t plot up the stairs to talk to your wife, you plodded.
What an appalling ordeal. Sending love and light x
So sorry to hear this. Thank God you have a supportive wife.
Please look this protocol up. It seems to work
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Thank you for writing this.
"There is also a weird part of this experience, where cancer has changed me profoundly in a positive way. Where I used to be bothered by getting caught in the rain or traffic, now I just smile and thank God that I’m alive to be stuck in either. The weight of other things in my life has decreased."
Gratitude really is synonymous with happiness, in many ways. I've never had cancer but I've been in recovery from addiction for years. The shame, the lost nights, the cravings, the sweating, the weight loss, the firings, the arrests, the unwillingness to see people or pick up the phone, the terrible decisions and the regrets are all in my past. You don't bear any culpability for your cancer, like I do for my drug use, but I understand the positive change you speak about. Having those factors removed from my life (by God, I think, although I didn't believe in him and still really don't, intellectually) was like having a weight lifted from me. Now, every day is glorious. There are a few things which could ruin my happiness (and eventually one of them will... things like the death of my brother or my parents) but every day is mostly cake now. It's ALL good, even the bad things. I wish I could bottle this feeling and give it to other people (or maybe sell it) but it doesn't work that way. You have to pass through the fire to appreciate the beauty, it seems.
Why no chemo? Very effective in Head and neck cancers.
No lymph spread. Tumor had good margins on removal. Radiation was precautionary due to PNI and DOI